BE confused….

The power of not knowing…

As teachers and students of Pilates, and I suppose as humans in general, we are cursed with the “need to understand.” Although I believe that this does drive us towards beating the burden of ignorance it can also often leave us in the frustrated state of feeling incomplete. We may think, if I only knew this it would be easy!

A perfect example of this is my experience as a young American growing up in Mexico. I didn’t speak a word of the language until I was fluent. I didn’t want to be embarrassed by failing or making a mistake in front of my classmates. I try not to think of all of the friendships and experiences I may have missed out on by remaining absolutely silent for over a year…

I chose a similar path when going through the Pilates teacher training program in Boulder. I think that I was in the program for about 3 years… Until I realized that knowing everything entirely wasn’t an option. All you can truly do is remain curious, open… intelligently present.

The same rings true in both my Pilates and yoga practice. It isn’t about knowing it, it isn’t about DO-ing it. It is largely about falling, about experiencing, feeling, letting the work DO you… it is more about embracing the beautiful state of confusion. After all, once you know it… It no longer IS.

One of my favorite quotes describes this beautifully… “Don’t be afraid to be confused. Try to remain permanently confused. Anything is possible. Stay open, forever, so open it hurts, and then open up some more, until the day you die, world without end, amen.”

George Saunders

Enjoy the freedom that exists in not knowing….